Hi everyone! Welcome back to my blog. Today’s piece is more about how I was feeling in a particular moment. Lately, it seems that the good things that happen in life are more fleeting and farther between than ever, so when they do happen - even if they only last for a few seconds, we need to embrace them and cherish them forever. This blog is about one of those moments.
It was a particular sunny day in June 2021, and I had spent the entire day looking after my daughter. My son had been in school, and my mom decided to drop in for a visit. It was also a work day for me, so sometimes I accomplish a lot, and others, not so much. It really depends on my daughter and whether she has a nap or not.
I had to run an errand and my mom offered to watch the kids for me while I went alone. First of all, me getting alone time is very rare. Literally, my kids are always with me, even in bed when they can’t sleep. So I kind of relished the fact that I could sit in my jeep, alone, playing loud music, and enjoying the breeze as it gushed through the open window. I felt like I did pre-kids, about 9 years ago.
This drive only lasted about 15 minutes, but as I was driving home, two of my favorite songs came on my satellite radio. The first one, which of course I can’t remember the name of, was a song I heard when I test drove my very first standard jeep. I heard that song for the next two years, and it always reminds me of the freedom I had when I was driving my jeep anywhere. It belonged to me, I could come and go when I please, and it just felt right and good.
The next song that came on my radio that day was by Jessie J, “Domino”. If you have ever heard that song, it’s a feel good pop song that makes you want to throw your hands up in the air and sing along. It just made me feel so free, like I had no responsibilities or obligations. It was so good to let go, even if it was just for one car ride. In that moment, my only responsibility was me and I had this underlying gratitude that I could be there, in that moment, experiencing those feelings.
I got to thinking that there are a lot of people in the world that will never feel that way. I am so blessed to have the things that I do in my life. My jeep for instance - I don’t own a jeep for the sake of owning a vehicle and taking pleasure in that fact. I have maintained it, and it is 9 years old, with less than 100K on it, and looks brand new. It’s my first vehicle that I have ever fully paid off, and I use it every single day. I know there are a lot of people that don’t like Canada, but I am so frickin glad Canada is my home. We are so free to do what we want (in general terms). Especially as women - we can go anywhere, do anything, and be anything we choose. Sure, there are some restrictions. Sure, I have obligations that hold me back; the point is, I can choose what those obligations are. I am free.
This one moment in time reminded me of that. I am free. It’s something we take for granted every day. Most of us don’t even think about it, or take the time to think about it. It’s important that we self reflect on the things we’re given in life. It made me feel exuberant, like I was on top of the world. For 15 minutes at least, I could play loud music and let my hair down and boy, did I feel great.
💙 SAN
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